Daily Life of Me

17th May 2013

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Want to be a senior…

All the seniors are saying things like “I’m done! No more IB exams!”

Meanwhile Juniors…

*Crying and screaming* “My Historical Investigation is due soon and my Final English Essay starts soon!”

Seriously I have school in seven hours and I still need to do my analysis as well as my conclusion.

Tagged: ibh.i.historical investigationexamshigh school

17th May 2013

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thepensivebrony:

“you shouldn’t be depressed, people have it worse than you”

finally, after years of searching, the person with the worst life ever is found. formally, they are granted permission to be sad. but only them. only they have earned it. no sads for anyone else at all ever

Source: thepensivebrony

1st May 2013

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The end?

Its a weird feeling. I may not do Track or Cross Country next year. Distance has introduced me to friends, to not quit when you want to collapse. To persevere and push yourself even when your mind is screaming that you can’t do it.

It’s been a major chapter of my life for 3 years. Year round. I woke up at 6 in the morning to run stadiums, I ran hill repeats till I couldn’t breathe.

Its done. These are my friends though. The people I have parties with, see movies, go to drive ins, ice cream, eat lunch with, talk to everyday.

I may go back. Something about being girls captain makes this hard. These are my girls. I am not sure I should leave them. But I may, I can’t put my mental health off anymore. I need to figure out my priorities. Next season will tell if I want to give the girls team a push for State again.

I will always keep running though. You can’t stop a distance runner. See you at the road races!

Tagged: tracktrack and fieldrunningdistancehigh schoolquitcross countryxcmental healthsocial anxietysocial phobia

1st May 2013

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Replaced

For this whole school year since about September I have been slowly losing grasp on everyone around me. People I considered friends I realized didn’t care when I slipped from their grasp.

Other friends I have realized are people I don’t want apart of my life forever. For now its fine but they really wear me down, they hurt me emotionally more than I realized.

If anything it has helped me realized that I have a few good friends. But not a best friend.

I used to have that. That person that people just knew if they found you, they found them. That would just show up at your house or knew everything about you.

I don’t anymore. They are all gone. Nothing hurts more in friendship then having your closest friend suddenly disappear from your life and be best friends with another. Have it in front of you constantly and no matter how much I tried I can’t get them back.

Now I see her devolve into someone she swore she would never be. Drugs, alcohol, parties. I failed as her friend. Maybe I deserve this…

Tagged: friendshigh schoollonlinessabandonedreplaced

30th April 2013

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Looks….

I would love to look nothing like me.
I seriously cried in therapy when I shared how earlier this year one of my best friends took this joke and drug it out. He kept going on and on about physical flaws. I joked cause “I’m so fat.” Or something sarcasticly and he kept going.

Sad thing is everything he mentioned I already had on a list of things I hate about myself. He only helped me add a few more….

Tagged: friendssocial anxietysocial phobiabeautyugly